Talk about a sucky senior year

i can't think of any other time in my high school career that i have had such a bad year. You might say you can relate to me but i say not. First i started off not really getting along with my class. Second, my brother dies in a car accident. Third, to top it off, my grandma dies. So dont come crying to me when something little happens right now. I more than likely will not care what your problem is. I'm living day by day. Now that is a sucky senior year.

Days go by

The days go by and you still wonder if you are living for real or if this is all a dream that you will wake up from. I feel like that right now. i feel as i living on a rollercoaster with all of the emotions going through me right now. I wake up each day and have to remind myself that my brother is gone. It seems so unfair. I lost my partner for guitar hero and all of the video games that dylan and i used to play. I lost the person who showed me all the new music and made me listen to it. It just seems so unreal. The one thing i want i cant have and i would give up everything just to have my brother back. But there is nothing anyone can do for me to ease the pain. I put it off for as long as i can until it comes back to bite me

Decisions about living on campus

What residence hall do i want to stay in? Do i like background noise or not? This seem to be the questions they ask. I have no idea what residence hall i want to stay in. You have to have a preference for where you want to live. I have no idea. i just kno i don't want to live on the 12th floor of White Hall. Another question is what about my roommate. Will i like my roommate? Will i like college? This seems to be spinning around in my head.

My Brother, Dylan Nerud

you never realize how much someone means to you until they're gone. Most people might think that dylan was just an annoying brother to me. He was that and so much more. He was my best friend too. All i had to do was ask and he would help me or play video games with me. we would also race the fourwheelers back to the house. i know one of the things i loved about dylan was the crazy sound effects and all the quotes from different movies. I know i will never forget his famous text messages that he sent. Most of you may not realize this but he gave me a very unique nickname that only he would call me. i have asked one of his friends to call me this. If you want the nickname please ask me and i will gladly tell you.

School Year

The school year should be shorter. Many kids live on ranchs and farms. Many of these kids have to work at home, this causes problems. Many of their grades suffer for the times that they had to be at home working. I'm not a very good example of this because it only takes me to make up a week's worth of homework. I still live on ranch which means that my parents need my help. I might miss a day of school to help wean calves. This involves at least 4 people. Sometimes moving cattle requires more than 2 people. You also have to worry about winter and where your cattle are going to be during those months. You have to wonder how much protection they will have from a strom and if they have enough to eat. You have Spring coming around the corner and many people who ranch also farm. This means that you will be getting the ground ready for the planting season. Our parents didn't start school until September and were out at the beginning of May. I mean come on how much has school changed.

I realize times have changed. We have better farm equipment and computers and all that, but it stills takes time and man power to do this. Most people don't realize how much work goes into running a ranch. You have to be all the time. If something goes wrong, it comes down to you to fix it and you can't just fix it just like that. Sometimes it will take you all day to get this stuff done. The school should be shorter for this reason.

Contrast

When i was younger, I had a lot differences between now and then. I used to think school was fun and entertaining. I actually liked going to school when i was younger. It was a place that my brother couldn't bother me. The only problem was when i was younger was i didn't get along with the girls so i really didn't have any friends in my class. I always got along with the older kids. i was a lot safer driver on a fourwheeler then. I actually liked playing with puppies as a kid. Now i hate school now. I don't like going. I'd rather sleep in and forget school. Now i spin cookies on the road with my fourwheeler and ride across the pasture at unworldly speeds for safety. I don't like playing with puppies now cuz after having to play with 50 some puppies every year you get tired of it.

Siblings

Everybody thinks siblings are great. I say not. I mean come on who wants their brother picking on them. I know i dont. Yes i love my brother but its so annoying when they won't leave you alone. I kno because i think i have 1 of the worst cases of a sibling not leaving you alone. My brother won't stay out of my room. I have to lock my laptop to keep him from using it. Sometimes i wish i didn't have a sibling. Siblings are fun to have but they can be so annoying at times.