Days go by

The days go by and you still wonder if you are living for real or if this is all a dream that you will wake up from. I feel like that right now. i feel as i living on a rollercoaster with all of the emotions going through me right now. I wake up each day and have to remind myself that my brother is gone. It seems so unfair. I lost my partner for guitar hero and all of the video games that dylan and i used to play. I lost the person who showed me all the new music and made me listen to it. It just seems so unreal. The one thing i want i cant have and i would give up everything just to have my brother back. But there is nothing anyone can do for me to ease the pain. I put it off for as long as i can until it comes back to bite me